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jazzfishA week ago, at around nine-thirty in the morning, my first round of dextroamphetamine arrived.
"I hope this has some effect," I thought as I took one. "It'd be really nice to be able to focus on something for longer than, like, an hour."
Six hours later I looked up from my video game and said "Oh, I guess I should eat some lunch. And feed the cat."
I had really not been expecting quite that dramatic a shift. It's particularly interesting because I don't feel any different. No emotional changes, no extra energy (or lethargy). I just ... don't get restless. I start doing a thing and I no longer have the "bored now" or "this is gonna be too hard, not doing it" or whatever it is that my brain cooks up to tell me I'm done doing whatever it is, at least for now. (Is... is this how normal people are all the time?)
It does have at least a slight appetite suppressant effect, which is fine since I've been ... not exactly stress-eating (though I've certainly had stress-related sugar cravings) but ... bored-eating. "Nothing is interesting, maybe I'll have a snack." There's been much less of that this week.
Still remains to be seen how effective it will be at getting schoolwork (and work-work once that's a thing) done in a reasonable time, but I'm optimistic. Good way to start the year.
"I hope this has some effect," I thought as I took one. "It'd be really nice to be able to focus on something for longer than, like, an hour."
Six hours later I looked up from my video game and said "Oh, I guess I should eat some lunch. And feed the cat."
I had really not been expecting quite that dramatic a shift. It's particularly interesting because I don't feel any different. No emotional changes, no extra energy (or lethargy). I just ... don't get restless. I start doing a thing and I no longer have the "bored now" or "this is gonna be too hard, not doing it" or whatever it is that my brain cooks up to tell me I'm done doing whatever it is, at least for now. (Is... is this how normal people are all the time?)
It does have at least a slight appetite suppressant effect, which is fine since I've been ... not exactly stress-eating (though I've certainly had stress-related sugar cravings) but ... bored-eating. "Nothing is interesting, maybe I'll have a snack." There's been much less of that this week.
Still remains to be seen how effective it will be at getting schoolwork (and work-work once that's a thing) done in a reasonable time, but I'm optimistic. Good way to start the year.