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Up 'til after 2 AM last night, doing workstuff I couldn't get myself motivated to do until I started thinking of it like a paper or a class project so I drank a bunch of tea. Oops. At least the work got done. Today I feel more zombielike than I have in ages.

Which is not to say I've been all here the last couple of weeks. The weather has been deeply foggy, like "can't see two apartment buildings over" foggy. Lots of foghorns coming in off the inlet. This is an acceptable metaphor for my state of being as well. I think it's fair to class this as "depression" even though it's got some obvious and some not-so-obvious external causes. That is, it's not, or at least not solely, chemical. (Causes include workstress, lifestress, and other fun things.) I mean, you can tell I'm depressed because I'm not writing here, for one thing. Contrariwise, that I'm writing this is a sign that I'm doing better. I think.

We went down to B'ham over the weekend for a US grocery run, which was mostly unremarkable except that I picked up a nice wool coat from the thrift store. Not having a car has made me acutely aware of the difference between "comfortable" and "a little too chilly" in my green jacket, and my hunting parka is warm but too bulky to be a good city coat.



101 update (the list)

Completed:

65) Organize the storage closet. This was almost entirely [personal profile] uilos; all I did was make a space to move stuff out & in, and deal with a couple of boxes afterwards.

66) Organize the downstairs storage unit. Again, mostly [personal profile] uilos in tandem with the storage closet. Having said that the storage unit was in better shape than I'd thought. "Organizing" consisted mostly of adding some stuff from the closet, and bringing a lamp upstairs to add some light in the bedroom.

76) Update budget with RSP numbers. Also with 2013 tax numbers. As expected, this mostly looks like "put less money in the savings account because more is coming out pre-tax." (RRSP is Canadian for 401(k), and I wouldn't bother except that the company offers 50% matching for up to 6% of salary. Here endeth the economics lesson for today.)

In progress:

1) Travel outside the US/Canada. Plane & hotel reserved for San José del Cabo at the end of February.

47) Play or purge all the unplayed boardgames in my collection, except for Italia. (4/13) Played Express 01, a train game where the board and track are cards, which are also money and stocks. Traded Pergamemnon.

69) Reduce the Last Two Lousy Boxes to a single Last Lousy Box. Turns out it was the Last Three Lousy Boxes. One down.

90) Read or purge everything currently on the To Be Read shelf. (4/25) Finished Godslayer by Jacqueline Carey and Thirteenth Night by Alan Gordon. Purged Vancouver: Stories of a City as it's mostly focused on early Vancouver history, which is not what I'm looking for. Currently reading The Drama of the Gifted Child.

Date: 2013-01-24 06:10 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] rbandrews
Yeah, one of the big revelations for me was the idea that if you had narcissistic parents and were perceptive as a child, then you probably realized that they wanted you to be a cardboard cutout of a human being and not actually have any needs or feelings, so you learned to do that, which later in life makes you miserable.

You might also like the book I'm currently reading if you liked that. Same kind of theme but not, you know, translated from German.

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"Jazz Fish, a saxophone playing wanderer, finds himself in Mamboland at a critical phase in his life." --Howie Green, on his book Jazz Fish Zen

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