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[jazzfish]

The weekend involved a visit from a black mood, about which the less said the better.

Monday evening I discovered that I can't read calendars and thus can't plan, but still get upset when the plan diverges from what I'd thought it was.

Tuesday morning I got a "you seem so nice but" message from someone who sounded really cool and vaguely promising.

Wednesday evening was bad in a way I'm not really ready to talk about. Plus the maple pound cake turned out slightly bitter around the edges of my tongue (in the same way that pancakes do sometimes, which means that all it needs is about a teaspoon of vanilla, but still frustrating).

Tonight is my first trip to a writers' group. I'm a little nervous about what happens if and when this trend continues.

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[ancientsong.livejournal.com]

:Breaking LJ silence here:

While I'm sorry certain things aren't going the way you want them to, I keep thinking that certain things are and even if the changes don't seem like they are going to be "really great" right away, I agree with your statement above that these are all things that are moving in the right direction (or better things ahead).

And YAY for going to the writer's group. I'm looking very forward to hearing what happened.

Sending you support and hugs.

[jazzfish]

Thanks. It's mostly just frustration. I'm trying to keep misuba's Six Rejections in mind. (In particular, "you know, if you were really trying out there, you'd be falling down more.")

[ancientsong.livejournal.com]

My friend J is an Olympic class skier. We were talking about skiing once and he said that he falls and falls relatively often.

"Why?"

"Because if you're not falling every once in a while, you're not skiing hard enough."

To me, those are words to live by.