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jazzfishJust got back from a relaxing several hours at Chez Shauna, featuring ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
idoru, jude, beracjade, various full- or part-time inhabitants of Chez Shauna, and around a dozen other people I'd either never met before or had only met in passing. I lurked and sat and enjoyed being around people who were enjoying being around each other. Finding Nemo and Who Framed Roger Rabbit? played in the semibackground, so I can say I've seen about three-quarters of Nemo now. (Looks cute. Also pretty. Also, seagulls! and crabs!) Spoke a bit with the three who I knew, played a bit with the hyper kitten, entered into a few conversations. Got hugs. (Important.) Gave backrubs to Shauna and Elly(?). Elly seems like someone who I'd like to have talked to more (she mentioned in passing that she role-plays), but then, right now that way madness lies. Perhaps I'll see her again in a year or two.
It's enlightening to realise that the togetherness I was looking for does still exist, that I can find it. Maybe it's an artifact of Troupe, of throwing so many brilliant overstressed people into a situation where physical contact is encouraged. Maybe it's something that I'll need to create if I don't find it where I'm looking.
In the middle of the memorial service it occurred to me that I no longer had any desire to die. After tonight I've got a better idea of why that is.
Thank you. All of you. Those who were at Chez Shauna, those reading this from nearby and from far away, those I've never met in person and those I've known for longer than forever. You're what makes life worth living.
idoru, jude, beracjade, various full- or part-time inhabitants of Chez Shauna, and around a dozen other people I'd either never met before or had only met in passing. I lurked and sat and enjoyed being around people who were enjoying being around each other. Finding Nemo and Who Framed Roger Rabbit? played in the semibackground, so I can say I've seen about three-quarters of Nemo now. (Looks cute. Also pretty. Also, seagulls! and crabs!) Spoke a bit with the three who I knew, played a bit with the hyper kitten, entered into a few conversations. Got hugs. (Important.) Gave backrubs to Shauna and Elly(?). Elly seems like someone who I'd like to have talked to more (she mentioned in passing that she role-plays), but then, right now that way madness lies. Perhaps I'll see her again in a year or two.It's enlightening to realise that the togetherness I was looking for does still exist, that I can find it. Maybe it's an artifact of Troupe, of throwing so many brilliant overstressed people into a situation where physical contact is encouraged. Maybe it's something that I'll need to create if I don't find it where I'm looking.
In the middle of the memorial service it occurred to me that I no longer had any desire to die. After tonight I've got a better idea of why that is.
Thank you. All of you. Those who were at Chez Shauna, those reading this from nearby and from far away, those I've never met in person and those I've known for longer than forever. You're what makes life worth living.
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Date: 2004-01-03 11:25 pm (UTC)that was an interesting group of people, actually. jilli/michelle/elly/me hung out watching anime at elly's this summer, being all tj '02. maggie's [02] best friend, but wasn't a troupie. mcalpine's [02] a dear friend [through choir and other classes] who now lives in CA -- as do his parents. seeing him's a rare treat. nali [02] i knew from Around/we had astro together, and stryer [01] is her boyfriend, and he hung around troupe a lot. sarah [00] i've known since i started at tj; dankav is the younger brother of a guy she dated her first two years at tj. he hung around trope a fair amount, though he went to herndon before he dropped out and got his GED. k8 [03] did a lot of troupe costuming, is at cornell, and i talk to her more now than i did at tj. and then of course phill's one of my big brothers. :D
but good people will always mesh well, so the varying social groups/years don't really matter much. and tactile groups of friends are a wonderful thing. i miss it.
:] i'm glad you enjoyed yourself. i certainly enjoyed seeing you, despite my prancing about being all first-prized and such. ;D
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Date: 2004-01-04 04:29 pm (UTC)It's just as well they're not all Troupe types. Makes me more hopeful that such people might exist elsewhere. (I've been back in the Burg for about seven hours now, around people I know for less than one, and irritated by them for about that long. Gah. Stupid people suck.)
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Date: 2004-01-04 07:55 pm (UTC)troupe 'types'.. man, on the upswings, or the regular? i tended more and more to stay AWAY from the 'troupe types' after my soph. year at TJ, despite doing paint work, because troupe has a tendency to turn into an irritating public ball of mopey WHINE dressed in black, and degenerate into a social group for misfits. it has its place, but can get REALLY fucking irritating. [though it does pull some awfully cool people at times.]
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Date: 2004-01-08 02:05 pm (UTC)I thought some more about that and realised that the cool people tended to be /really/ cool, and the rest of them tended to, well, not be. And the bad ones can quickly overpower the good ones. (This can also be extrapolated to the people I hung out with my first few years at college.)
So. . . clearly what I'm looking for is a collection of, say, eight to ten people, all acceptably cool. Tactile but not creepy. I think it's doable, but it'll take a good bit of work. (There was a time several years ago when I almost had it. . . then people started graduating from college and getting married to people in Atlanta and such.)
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Date: 2004-01-09 09:48 am (UTC)I transferred to Tech because I liked the atmosphere, and for the first year or two I hung out with some non-troupe friends from my senior year at TJ. But now most of them are gone or have turned to social groups that I don't want to be a part of. So I find myself, for the most part, without friends and yet not so desperate I would want to be friends with anyone who passed my way.
I remember friendship being easier (probably untrue) and more fun (true). I miss a social group, mostly, I think. And I'm not sure I want to take up a hobby that I don't really enjoy just to be with people I do enjoy...unless they were cool with that. But I think I have finally grown out of friendship drama, so I'm definitely not looking for that. Tactile? Hmm, not my thing anymore, I'd have to get used to that again. Maybe I'm looking for rare people who are probably not the group type. Maybe not.
That was long. By the way, hi :-) I've got your contact info, so I'll give you a call, maybe? Unless you send me hate mail telling me not to (cimperat@vt.edu).
Just out of curiosity.....
Date: 2004-01-11 02:30 am (UTC)Re: Just out of curiosity.....
Date: 2004-01-11 07:49 am (UTC)"Do I contradict myself?
Very well then I contradict myself,
(I am large, I contain multitudes.)"