Words are inadequate

The thing is, I think the main difference between my good writing and your good writing is the amount of time I put into it. I don't know if this comes through, I've not done enough writers' workshops and etc. to get too many second opinions, but when I read my work, even once I get the right words I can feel the struggle of producing them. They don't read the same as inspiration-struck-here. I'm still wondering whether that's in the work itself or just one of those differences between reader and author perception of it.

This is not too important in nonfiction. I'm experimenting with dodging it in fiction by having a narrator dysfunctional enough that the strained-ness fits. Which it seems makes me happier, whether anyone else notices it or not.