Subjects removed, deposit received. It is still possible for something to go sideways but it's now much harder. I'll be out of there by 10 July.
Incidentally, this is how I know there's something wrong with my brain: I feel no excitement or joy at this, just a sense of relief followed by "okay, now on to planning the next things." I am told that normal brains get pleasure and dopamine from accomplishments, which makes succeeding at things and completing tasks "worthwhile" and consistently repeatable. Yeah, not so much over here.
Interview with NG went quite well I thought, but the position is even worse than anticipated. I'd be the first writer in the department, tasked with rewriting / standardising all their procedures, in Microsoft Word. Not to mention that a 45-minute (one-way) commute on top of 10.5-hour days is unlikely to be a good fit for me. I will of course take it if offered, and use the opportunity to swap my twenty-year-old gas guzzler for an electric (the apartment complex I'm looking at has chargers available for $100/mo, which would be substantially less than the gas cost, plus this way I wouldn't have to deal with the hassle of importing a vehicle). And we'd see how long I last before cracking entirely. The over/under is a year; I'd take the over but without much optimism.
Incidentally, this is how I know there's something wrong with my brain: I feel no excitement or joy at this, just a sense of relief followed by "okay, now on to planning the next things." I am told that normal brains get pleasure and dopamine from accomplishments, which makes succeeding at things and completing tasks "worthwhile" and consistently repeatable. Yeah, not so much over here.
Interview with NG went quite well I thought, but the position is even worse than anticipated. I'd be the first writer in the department, tasked with rewriting / standardising all their procedures, in Microsoft Word. Not to mention that a 45-minute (one-way) commute on top of 10.5-hour days is unlikely to be a good fit for me. I will of course take it if offered, and use the opportunity to swap my twenty-year-old gas guzzler for an electric (the apartment complex I'm looking at has chargers available for $100/mo, which would be substantially less than the gas cost, plus this way I wouldn't have to deal with the hassle of importing a vehicle). And we'd see how long I last before cracking entirely. The over/under is a year; I'd take the over but without much optimism.
