Words are inadequate

Thank you. It's... I had (have?) a longstanding aversion to antidepressants, stemming partly from a bad experience in late high school / early college and partly from a conviction that my depression is situational. But a) drugs are better now, b) I'm better able to advocate for better drugs now, and c) as noted, if the depression is knocking me out this much it doesn't matter if it's situational, I need some help dealing with those situations. Will see what a psych has to say, once job and living situation are sorted.