rest for brain

[jazzfish]

Well. After three weeks of Not Work I am begining to sleep for more than six hours a night. Not straight through, I'm still waking up at four or five and it sometimes takes me awhile to get back to sleep (and then the second half of sleep often isn't great), but I can get back to sleep more often than not. It is possible that my previous job may have been extremely stress-inducing.

Starting to dig into some of my mental Stuff around, oh, work and What I Want To Be Doing and all of that. Messy stuff, bringing up a lot of, well, anger, and seemingly-unrelated memories and maybe-desires. Messy in a way that counseling hasn't been in several years, not since I broke through on abandonment / 'nobody-likes-me' stuff. So I guess that's probably a good thing?

Been riding fairly often, though the bike's currently in the shop having the brakes worked on; got out my viola earlier this week. I'm reading, I'm generally eating well and even planning to experiment with tikka paneer later this week. I think things are going well. I think I need this time.

Comments

[reedrover]

I’m glad you are finding better rest.

[jazzfish]

Thanks. It's a nonlinear process, for sure: this morning I was up at five again. But I still think it's getting there.

[sartorias]

Things going well: yes! More of that!

[jazzfish]

*smile* here's hoping!