still alive, still struggling
Sep. 21st, 2022 07:51 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jazzfishI have an appointment with a random doctor for tomorrow. (It is basically impossible to find one's own family doctor in BC. I had one before I moved north, and she got me my CPAP, but she's since left the country.) Plan is to talk about my breathing difficulty. Monday night I walked up the hill from the Skytrain, pulling my suitcase behind me, and was having trouble breathing for a good half hour after I got in.
I am pessimistic about this particular appointment. I expect it to focus heavily (ha) on my weight, since that's easy and obvious and I believe the appointment is for a ten-minute block. But I live in hope. And my CPAP is definitely giving up the ghost, so perhaps I can at least convince the doctor to write me a prescription there so that insurance will cover it.
Slightly more focused at work, I think, or maybe I just have definite and clear tasks this week. It's still not great.
I would really like for life to involve things other than "can't sleep" and "low energy/brain" but that does not really appear to be in the cards at the moment.
(I am not sure which frightens me more: that I have long-covid, or that I don't and this is all just a direct result of poor and difficult-to-impossible-to-reverse life choices.)
I did get a toaster oven a few weeks ago. So far I'm quite fond of it. It toasts bread and Pop-tarts acceptably, and makes frozen waffles quite well. I've also used it for toasted-cheese-and-roast-beef sandwiches, at which it excels. I keep meaning to try making a small batch of cookies but haven't gotten around to that yet. Maybe next week.
I am pessimistic about this particular appointment. I expect it to focus heavily (ha) on my weight, since that's easy and obvious and I believe the appointment is for a ten-minute block. But I live in hope. And my CPAP is definitely giving up the ghost, so perhaps I can at least convince the doctor to write me a prescription there so that insurance will cover it.
Slightly more focused at work, I think, or maybe I just have definite and clear tasks this week. It's still not great.
I would really like for life to involve things other than "can't sleep" and "low energy/brain" but that does not really appear to be in the cards at the moment.
(I am not sure which frightens me more: that I have long-covid, or that I don't and this is all just a direct result of poor and difficult-to-impossible-to-reverse life choices.)
I did get a toaster oven a few weeks ago. So far I'm quite fond of it. It toasts bread and Pop-tarts acceptably, and makes frozen waffles quite well. I've also used it for toasted-cheese-and-roast-beef sandwiches, at which it excels. I keep meaning to try making a small batch of cookies but haven't gotten around to that yet. Maybe next week.