onwards and onwards
Jan. 8th, 2019 03:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jazzfishWell. That was a year, I guess.
Travel's an easy starting point. Niagara again for the Gathering. Portland for Write The Docs, Washington state for pagan camping that I never did write about. Back east in October, Montreal plus a couple days each in Culpeper and Baltimore with a very brief stopover in Falls Church for books and spices. And ten or a dozen trips north. I have certainly been places, and spent a substantial amount of time "away from home" for whatever value of. I was hoping and planning to make October into a big trip back east instead of the abbreviated one it wound up being, and now I don't know when I'll actually manage to make that trip. Oh well.
Money continues to be horrible though there's at least a nominal endpoint for that. I suppose not putting money into my RRSP for the last six months has been a bit of a blessing, given the way the market's gone. I hope that by the end of this year I'll have some sort of a Plan again. Living with no thought of the future hasn't been bad precisely but it potentially leaves me in a tight spot when the future arrives.
Social has been ... complicated. I think on balance it's improved, but it's honestly hard for me to say. I guess that's always true. The taste of ashes feels more prominent, this season. There's Erin, there's djinn, there's a handful of other people that I can maybe talk to or engage with.
I wrote, a bit, back in March. I've sort of kept up viola. A couple of weeks ago I reminded myself how much I enjoy 18xx games, and I've been reading a little more, and I had more breakdowns than I really care to count. I dunno. I know myself a little better. At this rate I might be a functioning human being in another decade or two.
Last year I decided that where I was at wasn't working and threw it all up in the air to see where it would land, what would shatter, what would stay, what I wanted and was able to catch. I seem to have mostly let it fall to the ground and hoped the important bits wouldn't roll too far away.
Mostly I'm tired. If I can come out of this year and feel less tired I'll count it as a win.
Travel's an easy starting point. Niagara again for the Gathering. Portland for Write The Docs, Washington state for pagan camping that I never did write about. Back east in October, Montreal plus a couple days each in Culpeper and Baltimore with a very brief stopover in Falls Church for books and spices. And ten or a dozen trips north. I have certainly been places, and spent a substantial amount of time "away from home" for whatever value of. I was hoping and planning to make October into a big trip back east instead of the abbreviated one it wound up being, and now I don't know when I'll actually manage to make that trip. Oh well.
Money continues to be horrible though there's at least a nominal endpoint for that. I suppose not putting money into my RRSP for the last six months has been a bit of a blessing, given the way the market's gone. I hope that by the end of this year I'll have some sort of a Plan again. Living with no thought of the future hasn't been bad precisely but it potentially leaves me in a tight spot when the future arrives.
Social has been ... complicated. I think on balance it's improved, but it's honestly hard for me to say. I guess that's always true. The taste of ashes feels more prominent, this season. There's Erin, there's djinn, there's a handful of other people that I can maybe talk to or engage with.
I wrote, a bit, back in March. I've sort of kept up viola. A couple of weeks ago I reminded myself how much I enjoy 18xx games, and I've been reading a little more, and I had more breakdowns than I really care to count. I dunno. I know myself a little better. At this rate I might be a functioning human being in another decade or two.
Last year I decided that where I was at wasn't working and threw it all up in the air to see where it would land, what would shatter, what would stay, what I wanted and was able to catch. I seem to have mostly let it fall to the ground and hoped the important bits wouldn't roll too far away.
Mostly I'm tired. If I can come out of this year and feel less tired I'll count it as a win.
I've been sitting in my room staring at the ceiling
I've been sitting all alone, I need another point of view
I've been sitting in my room, I need a change of scenery
I've been sitting all alone, I wonder what I'm gonna do