a lie: speed is the way of the runner.

[jazzfish]

So, I'm running again.

I started running in spring 2006 for reasons that can only be described as Awful. Thing is, even if the reasons are bad, the health benefits are real. People tell me exercise is good for fighting depression. Plus I like being able to fit into certain shirts, and I like being able to sprint back to the game store to pick up my hat when I forget it.

The big obstacle has always been my lungs. In cold weather they freeze up during any sort of exercise. (In humid weather I sweat like a beast and overheat, which is also no fun.) In 2006 I worked my way up to the point where I could run for about 20 minutes at a stretch without stopping to walk, and then it got too cold to go out, so I fell back off the wagon. Later years had a similar but less effective trajectory, usually interrupted by high summer, Lyme disease, or other factors beyond my control.

I never even got started this spring. I blame apathy. Or I would if I could be bothered to care.

Now I'm back to the condition I was in during spring 2006 when I started all this. And like then, I've reached the point where I hate my physique more than I hate getting up in the morning.

So, I'm running again. Living a quick walk from Lost Lagoon helps: it's got a nice dirt path which is nicer on my knees and hamstrings, it's basically flat so there are no hills to struggle with, and it's very pretty. After a week and a half I'm running five minutes at a stretch, which originally took me three months to get to. So that's something.

I have goals, both performance- and apperance-based. I have no idea if they're at all reachable. Since my inherent response to reaching goals is "obviously i didn't set them high enough," that's okay. At least I'm doing something.

(And yes, I'm familiar with The Fantasy of Being Thin.)

Comments

[skreidle.livejournal.com]

I finally put the pull-up* bar back in the doorframe after languishing under my bed for many months... I think seeing the Olympics was the motivator for that. (Also, Riss cleaned the bedroom and ousted said bar toward storage, so I decided to put it to use instead.)

* also pushups, dips, and crunches, when at floor level

I've also thought about running, but I want to get into barefoot-style running, and I can't afford good barefoot shoes (Merrills, VFFs, etc.), and haven't gotten around to buying or making huaraches.

[pictsy.livejournal.com]

Wouldn't running indoors solve all of your issues?