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[jazzfish]

Edge detection algorithm.

Your Questions Answered!: "What this has to do with 'libertarianism' in any sense I can't tell you, unless the term means 'being a completely orthodox right-wing Republican with an extra dose of hypocrisy.'"

Housewarming went well; various people braved the flood to hang out, chat a bit, play games, and admire the books. (And flood it was; the back yard had a river running down the hill into a new lake in the yard of the townhouses.) The lights only flickered a half-dozen times or so. I'm pretty pleased with it. Next weekend, I think, is dedicated to recovery and staying home.

Which may or not be the best choice. I've been retreating into my shell for at least the last four months, probably longer than that. (It's hard to tell from inside.) Board games, as ancientsong observed a month or more ago, are a great way to be sociable without actually being, you know, sociable, and nearly all my activities lately have revolved around gaming. Writing's trickled off into nearly nothing. Before this morning I'd not been running since before Origins. Etc, etc. It's easy to shut myself up, shut myself off, shut myself down. Easy to make excuses, and keep making them. It's time to Do.

Autumnal-- nothing to do with leaves. It is to do with a certain brownness at the edges of the day. . . . Yesterday was blue, like smoke.

"New Year's resolutions." "Spring cleaning." For a milbrat, fall is the time for new beginnings.

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[jsciv.livejournal.com]

I use board games as a social crutch, but I'm okay with that. They're indeed a way to be sociable without actually having to come up with "artificial" things to talk about, but for me that also means that judging by people's reactions to various games I also get to know how much like "my kind of people" they are and thus if I'll want to hang out with them more away from the gaming table. There are some people who I've become friends with through gaming, a number of people that I'll game with but really don't know much about, and there are a few that I gamed with only as long as the first game lasted...

If I have to go out to a party or a social gathering where I don't know people I'm not really that talkative (that's what Andy is for), but I know my limitations and accept them. And I know what I use gaming for and also accept that. :)

[salzara-tirwen.livejournal.com]

I tend to run into the catch-22 of having to be social to find people to game with in order to avoid having to be social. Not exactly a talent of mine.
So alas, my D&D 4.0 magic-missile-spewing pervy-elf-fancier lizard named Bob is, after a few brief adventures, languishing bored in a book with no further prospects.

[jazzfish]

I've got no problem at all with gaming as a social activity. I hate interacting with people I don't know very well.

The main problem is that I'd like to find people to get to know better, and /get/ to know them better, and gaming's okay for the first but crap for the second. (A secondary problem is that it's easy, short-term, to say "but i know people! i game with them!")

[ignis-mcgruff.livejournal.com]

Edge detection algorithm.

I know he did something amazing there, but I kind feel like I am looking at a reprisal of this image:

[thanate.livejournal.com]

On the other hand, you just started co-habiting, so you're *required* to have more daily people time than perhaps you're used to. Depending on how much non-social time you require, this may be more of a drain on your resources than you necessarily notice. And you've been "do"ing a great deal with the move and the re-sorting apartment and all that. Just a thought.

[jazzfish]

This is sort-of true, in that it's easy to fill my social-time with uilos and that moving has taken a lot of effort. I'm not fussing at myself (too much) for having done a lot of hermiting the past month or so. The trouble is that it's a pattern that's been ongoing for a lot longer than that.

The ultimate goal is to a) find new people I can connect with, because I'm crap at dragging myself out to do things and uilos is often even more hermity than I am, and b) be more constructive (write, run, experience), while c) not burning out from trying to overhaul my entire life and not leaving time to vegetate.

[salzara-tirwen.livejournal.com]

fall is the time for new beginnings.

It's always been the same for me. What with being born in November, school, college, grad school, various things in various jobs... things start in the fall.
Sometimes I buy a neat-looking year planner of the jan-dec variety, and I just can't get interested in it because the year is the wrong shape. So I leave it in a drawer, forlornly abandoned with hopeful scribbles inside, and go with the same august to august format I've been using for approximately forever.
Because that's how the year is shaped.

"the summer ends and we wonder who we are"

[jazzfish]

Orders and moving happen in the summer, so that's when friends all change again. Add to that the "normal" upheaval of the school year that's ruled my life for, oh, up until 2006, and the gearing-up-for-xmas of retail, and, yeah. August is beginning time.