tired (?)

[jazzfish]

The problem with getting in to work at seven-thirty is that my tea is gone before ten. I'd get a second cup but I'm trying to avoid a serious caffeine addiction. So it's back to mint or water for me.

I come home and I collapse on the couch and stare at the ceiling or the bookshelves for fifteen minutes, half an hour. I ought to be doing something but it's just too much effort. This is kind of understandable when it's immediately after work. It seems excessive when it's coming on the heels of an ice cream outing, or RPG night, and the 'do something' that's too much effort consists of 'brush my teeth and go to bed.'

It's surprisingly easy to forget how exhausting people can be. There's a small handful that require no particular effort to interact with, and three or four that can even be refreshing. Boardgaming days are pretty low-stress as well, probably due to there being a known structure to work within. And, yeah, sometimes watching a party happening around me has a soothing effect. In general, though, people are difficult. Usually but not always more so than the absence of people.

"Maybe . . . maybe 'lonely.' --You're laughing. Well, it is funny. Linus Larrabie is Lonely."

Perhaps I could use an actual, nonstressful vacation, one that doesn't involve cramming as much time as possible into too few hours. I think I had one of those in 2004.

Comments

[laughin.livejournal.com]

Have you given up on running?

[jazzfish]

Running's M-W-F, and resetting my alarm every day is obnoxious, so I just get up a little earlier than I need to on T-Th. I can only lounge in bed for so long without risking falling back asleep, though.

[airncbuh.livejournal.com]

You are just an introvert. Dealing with other people is like handling kryptonite.

[jazzfish]

Lonely introverts are some of the most pathetic oxymorons on the planet.

[salzara-tirwen.livejournal.com]

I deal with lonely-introversion by going to the bookstore and reading while other people ignore me. :)

[pictsy.livejournal.com]

I quit caffeine for a few years, so my morning tea was decaf black (aka English Breakfast), which is delicious with some cream and sugar.

[jazzfish]

I've not yet tried decaf tea, mostly on principle but also because the caffeinated stuff is free at work.