"more light!"
Dec. 22nd, 2022 03:03 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jazzfishMore snow on the way tomorrow, saith the weather app, but today out my back window all is blanketed and quiet. Appropriate for an inbetween time.
As it turns out I'm not going anywhere. The buses were all full or flaked out. I briefly considered driving but I'd need to get winter tires put on first, and organizing that plus an eleven-hour drive, with both ends done in the dark, just felt like more than I could handle at the moment.
So I sit at home, with my black-and-white cat who seems to have gotten comfortable and secure enough to bite me when the world is not to his taste. (We're working on finding better ways to express displeasure.) I've scooted some things around and got my sun-lamp out and set up, so perhaps that will help break the depressive slump. I have a mug of tea in one of the large Wächtersbach christmas-tree mugs of my childhood, I have people who care about me. I have, maybe, the mental space to find my way.
The year past: Seven of wands
The transition: Nine of cups
The year to come: Three of swords, reversed
I got this far by relying on myself, and that's gotten me to somewhere I needed to be... but it's also left me wounded. Gonna need some help to heal from that.
As it turns out I'm not going anywhere. The buses were all full or flaked out. I briefly considered driving but I'd need to get winter tires put on first, and organizing that plus an eleven-hour drive, with both ends done in the dark, just felt like more than I could handle at the moment.
So I sit at home, with my black-and-white cat who seems to have gotten comfortable and secure enough to bite me when the world is not to his taste. (We're working on finding better ways to express displeasure.) I've scooted some things around and got my sun-lamp out and set up, so perhaps that will help break the depressive slump. I have a mug of tea in one of the large Wächtersbach christmas-tree mugs of my childhood, I have people who care about me. I have, maybe, the mental space to find my way.
The year past: Seven of wands
The transition: Nine of cups
The year to come: Three of swords, reversed
I got this far by relying on myself, and that's gotten me to somewhere I needed to be... but it's also left me wounded. Gonna need some help to heal from that.