again, post-rainforest
Mar. 13th, 2018 05:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jazzfishAs I said elseweb: Back from Rainforest, with a story that's mostly done and a reminder that I a) kinda like writing and b) do not suck at it. I needed this. Yeah. After being Strongly Discouraged from attending the weekly write-ins last summer[1] I'd written literally nothing, fiction-wise. It felt really good to get back into that head-space.
[1] Steph chose to take sides in the breakup. I remain bitter about this.
It also felt really good to read back over some of my older stuff, and find out that I still like a lot of it. I mean, I'm not overly fond of "City of Memory" but ... that's partly because the voice isn't terribly natural for me and partly because it makes me wince in recognition at how blatantly it tapped my mental/emotional state for the first half of the decade (main character takes on some responsibility and then everyone else goes off to have fun lives, forcing her to take on All The Responsibility, oh and also cast away all her emotions IT'S NOT A METAPHOR metaphors have to be at least a little subtle). But my 2010 post-breakup NaNo novel is kinda fun and interesting, even though it's deeply first-draft-y and the ending's trying for an emotional/character payoff that wasn't set up in the text, mostly because I came up with it with two days to go. And my VP story... that one's good. I reread that and I can actually see why I got into VP.
I met/remet a few neat people: none of whom I connected with as instantly/solidly as Karawynn, but all of whom are more local than K, and one of whom is even in Vancouver(!). And I got to break out the viola on Saturday night for a fiddle-jam with G for awhile, which is fun, and very close to the ideal situation I'd envisioned when I started learning.
As always, the question is whether I can keep the momentum going. But now I know that I want to, when I hadn't been sure for quite some time.
[1] Steph chose to take sides in the breakup. I remain bitter about this.
It also felt really good to read back over some of my older stuff, and find out that I still like a lot of it. I mean, I'm not overly fond of "City of Memory" but ... that's partly because the voice isn't terribly natural for me and partly because it makes me wince in recognition at how blatantly it tapped my mental/emotional state for the first half of the decade (main character takes on some responsibility and then everyone else goes off to have fun lives, forcing her to take on All The Responsibility, oh and also cast away all her emotions IT'S NOT A METAPHOR metaphors have to be at least a little subtle). But my 2010 post-breakup NaNo novel is kinda fun and interesting, even though it's deeply first-draft-y and the ending's trying for an emotional/character payoff that wasn't set up in the text, mostly because I came up with it with two days to go. And my VP story... that one's good. I reread that and I can actually see why I got into VP.
I met/remet a few neat people: none of whom I connected with as instantly/solidly as Karawynn, but all of whom are more local than K, and one of whom is even in Vancouver(!). And I got to break out the viola on Saturday night for a fiddle-jam with G for awhile, which is fun, and very close to the ideal situation I'd envisioned when I started learning.
As always, the question is whether I can keep the momentum going. But now I know that I want to, when I hadn't been sure for quite some time.