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I don't want to go home.

I miss the cats. I miss the shower that gives me plenty of water at temperatures other than "scalding" or "tiny ice cubes." I miss making breakfast while [personal profile] uilos is asleep. (Pop-tarts and bag tea don't cut it.) I miss my people, my friends. I think that's about it.

We've been outdoors most of the week, I haven't got a good winter coat here, and daily highs have ranged from fortyish to thirty. In these situations one learns to appreciate the north side of the street where the sun isn't blocked by buildings, and the intermittent patches of no wind. Also, I have got to find a better solution for my heels than 'lots of lotion' if I'm planning on being outside for hours at a time in the wind and the chill.

There have been crepes and black squirrels and miniature brown squirrels and leaves covered in frost or maybe light snow and a vanishing teahouse and two-dollar coins and ravens chasing a hawk and warm buses that mostly go where one needs them to. And that was just Sunday.

I love how the mountains sneak out from behind tall buildings when I come to a cross street. I love having the water right there, even if it's not for swimming. I love the leaf imprints on the sidewalks, and the superabundance of creperies, and the Chinese tea shop where a guy made us tea out of a tiny yixing pot for no reason other than that we happened to walk in and look interested.

I don't want to go home.

Date: 2011-02-26 06:17 pm (UTC)
From: [personal profile] plumbob78
Well, soon this will be home, won't it?

Date: 2011-02-28 02:46 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jpenamelist.livejournal.com
sounds like you found home :)

Date: 2011-03-02 12:12 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] babushek.livejournal.com
This makes me so unspeakably happy for you. This is how I felt the weekend of my thirtieth birthday, which I spent bumming around SF. To me it felt like falling in love with a place, and then finding out that it's actually my *home*, on a very deep level. I'm not sure which has more wonderful -- finding out that it's possible to have a place that feels like home, or having it sink in that I actually get to *stay*. :)

You will be back! Soon! And, it will be home! :)

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"Jazz Fish, a saxophone playing wanderer, finds himself in Mamboland at a critical phase in his life." --Howie Green, on his book Jazz Fish Zen

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