a dark autumn
Oct. 22nd, 2024 08:08 pmElection's over. I mean, not OVER over, we don't even really know who won yet. But barring something seismic it's another NDGreen like 2017. That one worked out alright at least.
Mostly I'm disheartened that the US "culture war" nonsense has finally spilled over wholeheartedly into Canada. For a long time in BC the Fiscal Conservatives ran things on the right and the Social Conservatives were sidelined, but a couple years back my former MLA got himself kicked out of the Fiscal Conservative party and decided toform his own party, with blackjack, and hookers revive the Social Conservatives. Meanwhile the Fiscal Conservatives were busy driving themselves into irrelevance, and finally hung up altogether six weeks ago.
Now if we're very lucky the Official Opposition in BC is ... well. Same sort of shitheads one finds south of the border among my blood relatives. If we're unlucky, a couple of close-race recounts will go the wrong way and they'll be the Government instead. The trend is clearly favoring the shitheads so who knows. (Answer: us, as of this time next week.)
Saturday night was not a good time, is what I'm saying, and that's without accounting for nine and a half hours of workstress preceded by eight hours of workstress the day before getting all the equipment loaded out and polling places set up. I have no real regrets about this job but it has for sure been more stressful than anticipated.
It's also just been a difficult month and a half. An uncertain and full work schedule means not being able to schedule social things, and then I end up being too ... something, tired, wrung-out, something, to do them even if I'd scheduled them. Result: tired and lonely, which is a bad combination.
I don't know that it's depressed but I don't know that it isn't. I slept poorly last night and it's been rainygrey for the last week or so, and those both contribute heavily. But: feeling withdrawn and anhedonic today. Decent amount of "oh yeah i remember liking that, maybe i should do that" followed by not doing it. Hoping that getting some sleep tomorrow, and not going to work for a few days, will help matters.
I'm "keeping up" in classes, by which I mean I'm keeping up in the one that's not got a lot going on, and have done about a third of the work for the other which is a little over halfway through. Credit where it's due, stupid Rob's stupid assignments etc have no due dates other than "end of term", so I'm still in okay shape there.
And I managed to get a practicum (unpaid internship, required for graduation) with BCGEO, the GIS arm of the BC government. Still not sure what it is I'll be doing, but I'll be doing it from mid-January through early April. That will overlap with Databases 2, which I believe will -not- be taught by stupid Rob, so hopefully that will work out okay. And then in the spring there's "Management Issues In GIS" and then ... I'm done. Time to find a Real Job and all that.
Honestly I'm a little worried about winter term. Not about the class, not really. About being able to handle a normal 40-hour work week while maintaining my own health and happiness. The class is just the cherry on top of the anxiety sundae.
But I'm also ... curious, and a little hopeful, about the actual work. Which is nice. Not something I've ever felt about a tech writing job, for sure.
Mostly I'm disheartened that the US "culture war" nonsense has finally spilled over wholeheartedly into Canada. For a long time in BC the Fiscal Conservatives ran things on the right and the Social Conservatives were sidelined, but a couple years back my former MLA got himself kicked out of the Fiscal Conservative party and decided to
Now if we're very lucky the Official Opposition in BC is ... well. Same sort of shitheads one finds south of the border among my blood relatives. If we're unlucky, a couple of close-race recounts will go the wrong way and they'll be the Government instead. The trend is clearly favoring the shitheads so who knows. (Answer: us, as of this time next week.)
Saturday night was not a good time, is what I'm saying, and that's without accounting for nine and a half hours of workstress preceded by eight hours of workstress the day before getting all the equipment loaded out and polling places set up. I have no real regrets about this job but it has for sure been more stressful than anticipated.
It's also just been a difficult month and a half. An uncertain and full work schedule means not being able to schedule social things, and then I end up being too ... something, tired, wrung-out, something, to do them even if I'd scheduled them. Result: tired and lonely, which is a bad combination.
I don't know that it's depressed but I don't know that it isn't. I slept poorly last night and it's been rainygrey for the last week or so, and those both contribute heavily. But: feeling withdrawn and anhedonic today. Decent amount of "oh yeah i remember liking that, maybe i should do that" followed by not doing it. Hoping that getting some sleep tomorrow, and not going to work for a few days, will help matters.
I'm "keeping up" in classes, by which I mean I'm keeping up in the one that's not got a lot going on, and have done about a third of the work for the other which is a little over halfway through. Credit where it's due, stupid Rob's stupid assignments etc have no due dates other than "end of term", so I'm still in okay shape there.
And I managed to get a practicum (unpaid internship, required for graduation) with BCGEO, the GIS arm of the BC government. Still not sure what it is I'll be doing, but I'll be doing it from mid-January through early April. That will overlap with Databases 2, which I believe will -not- be taught by stupid Rob, so hopefully that will work out okay. And then in the spring there's "Management Issues In GIS" and then ... I'm done. Time to find a Real Job and all that.
Honestly I'm a little worried about winter term. Not about the class, not really. About being able to handle a normal 40-hour work week while maintaining my own health and happiness. The class is just the cherry on top of the anxiety sundae.
But I'm also ... curious, and a little hopeful, about the actual work. Which is nice. Not something I've ever felt about a tech writing job, for sure.