ongoing stress
Mar. 4th, 2022 12:00 pmThe last time I got a FedEx package I put my PO box number on it, and FedEx complained and nearly didn't deliver my package because they wanted a physical address. So when I told work my address I told them to put the apartment number on there if it was going by not-Canada-Post. And of course FedEx decided to deliver to the post office this time, so my work laptop has been hanging out in the wrong PO box for nearly two weeks. I picked it up yesterday and it mostly seems to be fine. I say "mostly" because I'm getting a Trusted Platform Module error, which sounds like it's either irrelevant or going to break everything and I don't know which.
Meetings have been in the early early morning because they're with teammates in India.
I'm not nearly packed. I've got time but I wanted to be further along than this.
The last week or so I've been kind of shut down due to stress: not knowing what's expected of me from work, packing/moving, Sound of Music (which opened yesterday and went fine, but it is A Lot of time and driving and playing, so definitely stress there). This is not ideal but it's where I'm at for another month-plus, so.
I am, slowly, getting all the pieces in place for moving. Things like insurance, moving company, power, internet, all that stuff. I hate moving. Hate hate hate. I particularly hate doing it on my own. Last time I at least had the moving company in to pack the kitchen, and this time I'll have Erin which is much appreciated but still. There is just A Lot of everything.
So I am getting through and getting by and barely functional, which is really not my favourite. I should have told BMC that I couldn't start until I was bloody well moved and if they didn't like it then they didn't have to offer me the job, but oh well. Maybe I'll remember that for next time: Do Not Do Anything That Adds Organizational Complexity During A Move, No Matter How Good An Idea It Seems.
Bah. I am short on sleep and short on rest, tired and cranky and barely holding it together. In six weeks this will all be a bad memory except for the parts that are a good memory; I just need to hang on that long.
Sound of Music is going pretty well and is mostly fun but also frequently difficult, and I want to write more about that. Maybe next time.
Meetings have been in the early early morning because they're with teammates in India.
I'm not nearly packed. I've got time but I wanted to be further along than this.
The last week or so I've been kind of shut down due to stress: not knowing what's expected of me from work, packing/moving, Sound of Music (which opened yesterday and went fine, but it is A Lot of time and driving and playing, so definitely stress there). This is not ideal but it's where I'm at for another month-plus, so.
I am, slowly, getting all the pieces in place for moving. Things like insurance, moving company, power, internet, all that stuff. I hate moving. Hate hate hate. I particularly hate doing it on my own. Last time I at least had the moving company in to pack the kitchen, and this time I'll have Erin which is much appreciated but still. There is just A Lot of everything.
So I am getting through and getting by and barely functional, which is really not my favourite. I should have told BMC that I couldn't start until I was bloody well moved and if they didn't like it then they didn't have to offer me the job, but oh well. Maybe I'll remember that for next time: Do Not Do Anything That Adds Organizational Complexity During A Move, No Matter How Good An Idea It Seems.
Bah. I am short on sleep and short on rest, tired and cranky and barely holding it together. In six weeks this will all be a bad memory except for the parts that are a good memory; I just need to hang on that long.
Sound of Music is going pretty well and is mostly fun but also frequently difficult, and I want to write more about that. Maybe next time.