Words are inadequate

How interesting: there are things I distinctly don't like the taste of (such as cruciferous veggies, which my taste buds are convinced are poison) but I don't think of that as "fear" at all. I might if I thought harder about it? But that suggests to me that there's something else, something plausibly fear-based, going on with cold showers, and also with (may as well say it) loneliness.

In which case I suspect fear is a response to pain, which isn't the same as a deeply unpleasant bitter taste. And fear is in fact what's happening, regardless of what I think I "ought" to do about it.

Hrm.

(thank you!)